Just life.

I'm taking a well-needed break from school to vent about...you know, school.

It seems like once a year since entering the journalism program, I always get into a rut and think pretty negative things about not being cut out enough for this industry.

Third year has been hard, very hard. Taking on an extra course this year, I find myself sleeping for six hours or less every day because of the insane amount of homework I have to do for school.

And no matter how hard I try, it doesn't seem to go as well as I hoped. Just today, I found out that I failed a midterm.  Of course it IS only worth 15 percent of my mark, but it really stings.  I actually feel embarrassed.  Not to mention, extremely stupid.

I know these things happen to the best of us, but it often feels like no matter how hard I try, I'm not going anywhere.  My writing is still sub-par, and not only this, I am still an awkward human being.

There are some really brilliant people in my program and I just want to be on-par with the best of them. This stuff really bothers me and it probably seems sill that I care so much.

I just want to be good, you know?  I don't think I'm making a lot of sense here.

But all I'm saying is, I want to be a good journalist. And right now, it doesn't seem like I'm going anywhere.

I know marks don't mean the world, but I just can't help how much I care about this stuff. When I get a bad mark, it feels like it's a reflection of my work ethic.  Which leads me to think that no one will ever want to hire this person because "she's not cut out enough."

Yes, I did just quote myself.  I'm feeling incredibly down.  I really wish bad marks didn't affect me so much.  Maybe this is a sign that I need a life.

Switching over

I'm  a little tired with the software on Blogger but I'm not sick of you guys.

If you want to keep in touch, feel free to follow my Tumblr, which is where I will be posting more frequently now.

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JOURNALISM WORK

School is my worst enemy now.

School is totally getting on my nerves. And I'm really worried about this semester.

Here I thought having two days would be a lot easier for me to get work done and get a job. But nooo, I still don't have a job and I'm still buried in homework. In addition to this, the prospects of my marks this year don't look so great.

So now I guess there is only one way to improve from my silly mistakes. Today I had a french dictee which I don't think I did well on. To top that off, online journalism, which should be an easy course, is completely screwing with me. Making silly grammar mistakes are costing me a good mark!

Stop procrastinating. Stop going on the computer. Take classes more seriously (even though they are a bit of a joke) and work work work.

Clearly, I have no life.  I must score amazingly well on this week's news quiz and my Storify assignment!